tweedledum

Monday, February 27, 2006

remembered

just came from our dear gracie's blog, and that pic really brought back memories, as well as nostalgia, and perhaps even residual grief. thank you for sharing your life with us, for bringing to us your enthusiasm for life, for showing us true dedication and passion. enough time may have passed to heal the wound, to glaze the shock, to let us reconcile within us the fact that you've left us for a better place; but never, enough to make us forget.

as time drifts by and we age another year, we remember of a time long ago when we were younger, and in need of support and moulding, and we think of you. i'm sure i speak for all when i say that we've moved on; but no matter the place or time, we remember, and we always will. here's to you mr ho. i hope you're happy up there, and smiling down on us.

Monday, February 20, 2006

bring it on, baby!

haha. as you can tell, i'm currently on a break-induced high. OMG. it has finally come down to this, that precious one-week breather. who cares that i still have tons of projects that i have to go to school for, who cares that i have tons of tests and assignments to prepare for, break is break! just the mental thought that i'm currently on 'break' and not 'week 8' is good enough for me! lol. because i realised that ever since i entered smu, my life has been recognised in weeks, and not the conventional months or days. "are you free come march 20th?" -- "erm, depends. do you know what week that is?" ha. what have the world come too?!? but enough about that, its HOLIDAY!!

been trying to squeeze in as much as i can into my days, so i've been busier than ever. fri - sun marked a mad rush, what with me mugging till freaking 5.30am on fri night/sat morning for the stats midterm (which btw, i found out studying for was pure useless), then one to a business meeting then ee ee gong gong's 10th death aniversary mass/dinner. sun was a full day of painting at agh. we finally finished painting the entire computer lab after what, close to 4 weeks of weekly labour?? it really gave me the most unexplanable sense of satisfaction standing in the center of that room and slowly turning around, knowing that we actually painted it with our own bare hands. sunday's 8 backbreaking hours tiptoeing on the ladder despite the fact that i'm kinda afraid of heights and was having rapid heart palputations was actually quite worth it when i'm looking at the final product! we took cheesy photos after with our handphones, but i still cant figure out how to upload THOSE onto the comp, so you'll have to wait till i figure it out or go back this friday to teach classes k?

and back to now: monday will be ending in two hours time, and i've still got so many things uncompleted. my website, which i have expected/hoped/talked about for so long that it almost seems like a broken record with the emphasis on BROKEN is finally finally supposedly done. the reason for the supposed is, of course, because i've heard it too many times from my webpage designer, and so i'm now taking whatever he says with a pinch of salt:) but really though, i think he really may be for real this time! haha. apparently now I'M the one that's slowing the project down, since i havent given him my written text webpage content. so this week is my turn to work! heehee. i'm supposed to test out the enets payment system myself too to see if it works, and i've been happily playing out my tickled orange fantasies!! lol. as a client, i have purchased over $300 worth of items! heehee. one can wish, can't they? lol. too bad all these trial testing payments will be void huh? and lol, even if they weren't, it doesn't seem much, paying to myself right? haha.

anyway, currently finishing up with web content on my comp to be sent out asap, then planning to once again hold those pliers in my hands and get to work. can't wait! recently i've had tons of new ideas which i've been madly sketching down in class or during train rides home, and i can finally see if i can transform my designs to real-life! first round of jewellery photography is supposed to be tmr morning, so i better sleep early if i wanna start on time! heehee. and shopping with val after. i can't wait! although, i kinda put on weight recently, which makes buying clothes and looking into the mirror not too appealing, but heck it! i'm still determined to forget abt that and have a great shopping mission tmr. haha. i have to have this kind of attitude, or i'll never follow through with all those clubbing/shopping/movie dates! heehee. zouk on wed with val, xin, mel, mitch and the girls, momo on thurs, and mos on friday. i can't wait! as per my usual, i'm still continually bordering on the extreme -- cold turkey during school term, and glutton attitude during school breaks! i've got to find a balance!! heehee. but nonetheless, i'm excited:)

Thursday, February 09, 2006

happy belated birthdays=]

haven't updated in a while since i've been really busy with school. last week was really a hell week.... and thank goodness that's over and done with. fri - morning class, preparation, ltb show and tell, buying bday presents at night; sat - full day of painting, daddy's office dinner thing at night; sun - cancelled painting trip, church, and birthday dinner. plus mon and tue's usual two full days of classes:( i'm tired....!!! anyhow, supposed to be studying for next week's midterms but taking a break now. happy super belated birthdays xinyee, jinni, valerie, and xiaoyun... sorry we took so long to celebrate it. haha. we all simply couldn't find a mutual free time!! hope you liked the presents, and i certainly enjoyed the shopping after!! haha. retail therapy WORKS... haha, val,eve and jin, remember that blazer i wanted? i found it for even cheaper at ps! from $50 to $25 to $15. great deal:) haha, but still couldn't find the pink one, so i got grey;] ha, supposed to drag myself out of the house to go buy toto later. my mum says we should all join in this 'big draw'. 10 mil. haha, i've never bought toto before, hope i wont make a fool of myself! lol. if i even go... i'll leave you guys with one photo. to lazy to do my usual collage thingy on photoshop... heehee. but will upload the rest on a photo album for you to view soon k? tata!

Friday, February 03, 2006

i lost my voice!!

OMG. this has never happened to me before. my throat's condition has degenerated to the point where i can't get a clear word out! it hurts to even swallow, much less talk, and i just couldn't get myself to swallow any food earlier because the pain is too bad. haha. is this my body's way of telling me i should have gone on a diet to lose those chinese new year calories? i had three cups of honey water for dinner. how sad! ah well, looks like i'll have to rely on liquids for the next few days. lets see, soya bean milk for breakfast, tea for lunch, need i say more?? i better lose weight, i certainly suffered enough for it =[

Thursday, February 02, 2006

aish. stressed

back again. this is truly therapeutic, i swear. coming here whenever i feel this urge to voice something out and yet don't know who to talk to. seems recently my problems are largely school related. i've lagged behind, and still unable to catch up, and my solution once again is to hide behind my protective wall and pretend. i know there's something wrong with such a mentality, for it is probably of little use, and of no help to me. and yet i can't seem to make myself come out. my response is to retreat. and i'm comfortable with it... until the two voices in my head argue, and i feel bad for such a decision. i keep thinking, its only one class, its useless, its only 1% of my final grade, its only an ungraded practice... and i hate this side of me :(

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

restart the clock, please.

i would like to say that i've lived a life thus far without regrets, but i'm afraid that would be telling a lie. we all make stupid mistakes, do or NOT do things that we eventually come to regret; and it's all human nature, as well as part of the learning process. the worst, if we never learn that lesson, and if we continue to repeatedly commit such an offence. stupidity came knocking, and i answered. lets just hope i figure it out before i'm 80, old, and regretting.
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